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i'm tired, pissed, and only want to study for my CTs.
if you want to go find mrs C, go ahead.
i've already done what i should do.
its up to you and the rest to decide whatever you wanna complain abt.
i've said it.
i tried my very best but i didnt get the chance.
its now up to you to decide whatever you wanna do.
now, you are out and away from my life.
thank you for giving me troubles arh..
i learnt things earlier than average people and i thank you.
for letting me experience things.
and in case you didnt know,
she looks down on people alright.
she looks down on people.
i have my rights to do those stuff that day.
average people would also do that.
so dont blame me.

disclaimer: above information is confidential so people, do not probe.
and above mentioned are people who i do not want to disclose, to protect their privacy rights.
and i hope that that person can also understand what is the damned meaning of privacy rights,
human rights.

whatever said here will be posted in details in my wretch.
i'm letting people know abt these matter.
people who are not singaporeans.
so you will also not be probed.
i'm doing this to protect rights every single one should have.
but i'm disclosing this matter in detail to protect the rights that i should have.

signed off
goh su han ashley.


...jotting it down, at Thursday, July 31, 2008

joke of the century..
haha..
k this was during the start of chem tuition..
so we were asking for extra lesson for chem with our teacher and this is what was being conversed..

us: when you free?
chem teacher: ermm.. tmr after 9pm?
us: too late lahh..
chem teacher: but no other time lahh.. i'm booked..
nicholas: booked? haha.. which hotel?
chem teacher: hotel 92
nicholas: which room?
chem teacher: i dunno.. they are going to sms me..
nicholas: then when can we book you?
chem teacher: sms me lah.. i check time with you.. AH! rmb to bring your own equiptment!
LOL... getting out of point..


...jotting it down, at Monday, July 28, 2008

OH OH!
i recommend track 2 and track 5 of my playlist..
they are 公主徹夜未眠 and 阿宅失眠日記..
sung by 公主幫 and 宅男塾

other than these 2 songs,
冒險世界 diff music background of track 1 and 4 is also very nice XD


...jotting it down, at Sunday, July 27, 2008

training was fun..
thought there was sprinting sets with fins on 40 secs..
and relay XD
hahh..
anyway, recomendation of movie..
non chinese may not be interested cos its a chinese movie..
but its seriously nice XD
went to watch red cliffe with my family ytd after tuition..
and it is superbly funny and cool XD
so you people seriously have to watch it.. hehh XDD
other than movie recomendation, i recommend 黑糖群俠傳.
acted by none other than lollipop and hey girls(blackie)
HEY GIRLS! is the new name for hei se hui mei mei..
yah.
so, watched the first episode.
and is is super exciting and funny (of cos)
well, you people really have to watch it yo XD
shall end off here XD
sunday afternoons are boring..


...jotting it down, at

wlao.
the slackers didnt come today for 4.30 training.
can live up to slackers name man..
my lane only got 2 people today.
me and another girl..
dunno her name la.
but today's training was quite cool XD
hehh..
in total did ard 4k plus.
at the end its like
we can go home after warming down from 8x100 swim with paddles on 1.40
then the other 2 lanes swimmers, have to do kicking on the spot..
haha..
i told bryan god bless.
haha XD
anyway, its an accomplishment XD


...jotting it down, at Friday, July 25, 2008

people people, its the last post so that means i wont post anything regarding that damned thing.
cos thats not me.
i dun wanna stay negative or anything..
i wanna be back to the normal positive me..
yepp XD
so i'm fine people. i'm fine.

training today's cool XD
lots of sprints and distance so its like balanced.
did ard 4.5 k?
nearing 5k. that one i know cos
we did 1k pulling, 1k with fins
and lots of other stuff..
yepp..
its seems like these days i'm the only girl in my lane lah..
bella andrea and vanessa pangseh me..
oso dunno when they coming back from all the rest of aftermath nationals.

damned.
anyway,
the 'slackers' is like hah.
damned losers lah..
haha..
ivan thiang is like..
i dun wanna go first.. odd one out go.
i was like.. damned lah ivan..
then he said: eh. i wasnt pin pointing at you right..
i can mean slowest what.. gender oso can.
then i said.. ehh ehh. gender hor. i'm the only person with the different gender as you hor.

damned. another person who jacked me..

then zhiming was telling me on his convo with his TO.
damned la zhiming.
your TO got no brains at all.

nicholas dun wanna swim first cos he did 2.4 ytd.
k fine.
when told to do pulling for 1k
he was like..
huhh.. pulling ah. i damned tired from 2.4 leh..
then i said: eh. you did 2.4 with your hands ah? what you do? handstand izzit?


...jotting it down, at Thursday, July 24, 2008

this is so so so the last post of complaining about my current life
and i promise each and every one of you that
cos i dun wanna be depressed or anything.
all because this is not the real me.
yeah.
so if you are not happy or what,
jus shuddup and close this window.
its not doing you any good but if you are bored,
i dun mind you reading it.
its jus a pure boredness post.
yeah.










i really dunno whats with me.
its either me thats too stressed up with whatever things getting screwed and whatever,
plus things are not going the way it shld be.
i mean, lessons are okay and stuff.
i understand every single thing thats being taught.
but i am really very tired.
i dunno what the hell are things getting screwed up for.
seriously, i want to get out of this life asap.
i want to.
i feel like avoiding all these shit and stuff
but i cant.
i tried my best to control my tears.
but i brokedown today.
infront of ms wong.

thanks ms wong for listening.
cos nobody can do that except you and dawn.
i sincerely thank you for lending me your listening ear.

training today is such a big waste of time.
as in not club but school.
i hate to say this but its true.
it is so not doing any good to me.
i only know i wanna get out of this school asap after my Os.
i want to cut all ties with this damned irritating fuckedup school.
fucked up..
mother kraken.


...jotting it down, at Wednesday, July 23, 2008
joker.. am i?

right..
so what the hell am i thinking of man.
anyway,
here's the thing,
i went into the bookshop ard 7 plus..
then was looking for my pen refill.
so i asked..
ashley: uncle. got signo black refill not?
uncle: wait ah..
ashley: oh okay.
uncle: nope.. dont have
ashley: then got DARK BLACK not?!?
damned. i'm such a twit.. -.-


...jotting it down, at Tuesday, July 22, 2008

one more down.
if you people haven noticed, i'm very very very tired over several things..
things that made me on the verge to cry and stuff.
i really hate crying and i really hate those things and people who made me on the verge to cry.
damned.
all these started not recently but a few weeks ago.
i really dunno how to put it and stuff liddat but i seriously think that i really need rest.
things are not smooth sailing and i tried to put it at the back of my head,
tring to control my frustrations and stuff..
but i brokedown jus last week.
i am seriously very tired.
who in this world can help me?
i really feel like transferring and stuff but at this point of time,
its no use.
its too late.
and i really regretted several stuff.
really.
why the hell i didnt take up the super gd chance to go to ccmh?
why the hell did i land up in this situation?
i tried my very best to hide several stuff.
i tried my very best to control my emotions.
i tried my very best to do what i can do.
but why things jus have to go this way?
all these stuff,
have chased away that lame ashley goh.
yes.
including my leg problem.
now ashley goh may jus be cold and what others asked me, depressed.
i jus dun understand why the hell stuff have to happen this way.
if its so,
i dun understand why i have to experience all these damned stuff at a young age of 15.
yes i'm complaining.
but i know i still have to control.
我真的該懂得怎麼去收藏我的表情 情緒
以後的我 再也不是以前的我
我只知道 我會變得很無清 很冷淡
and its all because of all these stuff.
i have enough and i want to move on.
i dont wanna stay at the same spot turning rounds and rounds just to find a way out.
i had enough.






















went to get my spects and went home,
got ready for training and ya..
went training today XD
and haha..
got uncle sunny to sign my 'IOU' again XD
haha..
its I OWE YOU MY SIGNATURE FOR ATTENDANCE
haha..
training was quite okay..
and i know i improved cos my knee recovered, my stroke are much better,
i dun get latic acid much today..
and poof.
i'm done with today's training..
the sets were tiring and stuff.. XD
but its cool xD
hehh.. XDD
shall end off XD

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...jotting it down, at

training's fun today..
haha..
400 free
400 kick
400 IM drill with fins
100 IM with fins fast
300 IM drill with fins
100 IM with fins
200 IM drill with fins
100 IM with fins
10x50 kick 25 fast 25 slow
then relay.
first one: 100m free relay..
damned. i almost died lah.
didnt sprint for 100m for quite a long time..
although i did lots of distance swim..
second one: back relay
third one: fly relay
fourth one: free relay
fifth one: breaststroke relay
sixth one: medlay
yeah..
and i wanna kill a person..
IVAN THIANG
damned la..
he is like
'you go first'
then like..
eh. i swam the last leg of fly then haven recover yet he ask me swim second leg of free
wan me die ah.
wth..
aiyah. small thing i wont argue with small kids.
yeah


...jotting it down, at Sunday, July 20, 2008
swimmer language.. among a group of jus turned teenagers..

its not from me or anything..
its jus swimmer language from a group of 13 yr swimmer's convo..
-.-
apparently..
its funny and whatever.. but i'm not showing the convo..
there's stuff thats not supposed to be shown here...
cos i'm civilised.
yeah XD

imagine a strong competition of v*****
.. -.-
and even introduced the seven word video..
haha..
was super shocked at the first few words..
cos i didnt expect that...
but it was super funny..
was having a gd laugh after those convo..
haha..
but i didnt even expect that from those people..
even someone i know for 13 yrs.. -.-


actually, i can expect those stuff from him..
cos of pri school.
but its like..
he nvr said it out loud before.. -.-
right..


regarding the video,
if you are sensitive, dun even think of checking it out yo..
but if you are cool, can try..
http://youtube.com/watch?v=BTyzTJTNhNk

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...jotting it down, at Thursday, July 17, 2008
right... call me a twit XD

right...
joke of the day...
i came back home today after o lvl chinese LC
and suddenly thought of famosa spects in taiwan...
so i told my mom..


ashley: mom... taiwan famosa specs super cheap and nice... 90 singapore bucks for 2 pairs...
i wan i wan..
mom: hah..
your maths can score A already..
singapore cheaper..
ashley: ehh.. singapore sell 200 plus lor.. where got cheap?
mom: you say leh?



dun get the joke, nvm cos the irony is that the fees for the spects includes... AIRFARE.

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...jotting it down, at Tuesday, July 15, 2008
boredom strikes..

reread ace blog twice so no point to read anymore..
was laughing like siao.
anyway,
was v bored. so looked ard friendster bulletin board..
you know the place full of surveys abt yourself and stuff..
ya.
took 2 from tania's bulletin and combined to do..
total 70 questions.. now you know how bored am i..


right..
here goes..


1: Who has your heart?
-as in what.. hmm..


2: Do you like the last person who texted you?
-err... okay okay only.. she texted me for council stuff

3:Who was the last person to call you?
-sandhya on council stuff

4: What is the last alcoholic beverage you had?
-hmm.. sakae soju


5.When was your last encounter with the police?
-when someone lost her walkaton card.. (not saying who cos dun wanna give her trouble)


6. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
-absolutely not. i'm independent enough.

7. Did you sing at all today?
-yeah

8.When's the last time you cried?
-this morn when watching mfbbt erjun epi.

9.Last text from?
-khatigah


10. Are you scared of spiders?
-nope

11.Who were you with last night?
-my bro

12.What do you think of Fergie?
-nothing to say..

13.Do you believe in love?
-ya


14. When was the last time you were so drunk you threw up?
-dun have

15. Have you done anything you regret in 2008 so far?
-regreted? not training enough and letting things to screw my schedule.

16. Do you miss anyone?
-yeah.. now.. err.. him.

17.Do you curse?
-yeah

18.Who was the last person in your bed?
-me and me only

19.Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
-how would i know?

20. What color is your hair?
brownish black.


21. Have you ever drank with your number one?
-nope


22. Is there someone you wanna date right now?
-yeah..

23.Who knows a secret or two about you?
-dawn loo XDD

24. Are you too forgiving?
-depends

25.Ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
-no


26. Do you have trust issues?
- DUH

27. If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?
- i prefer people to be straightforward to me cos thats me.

28. Do you want someone you can't have?

- this will depend.

29.Have you ever punched a guy?

-yeah.. p6 is the period.. haha

30.Gotten in a car with people you just met?
-nope

31. Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

-sometimes i would want to

32.are you listening to any songs now?
- yeah.. 蕭敬滕's 王子的新衣

33. What's more important? Money Or Love?

-love

34. Do you ever turn you cell phone off?
-no. i'm 24 hr contactable.. except when i'm training.

35. What happened at 10.00am today?

-nothing.. i'm sleeping.

36. When did you last cry?

-i thought i answered this?

37. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?

-bread

38. What do you want in your life right now?

-err... can i dun ans this? sense=itive issue.

39. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?

-none.

40. What is your favourite thing to have on your bed?

-me myself and i

41. What bottom are you wearing now?

-bermudas

42. What is the nicest text in your inbox say?

-hehh.. i dun bother to check.

43. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
-why should i?

44. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?

-nope

45. What was the last movie you caught?
-kungfu panda...

46. What are you proud of?

-my brother

47. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?

-huh.. i jus deleted every single post.

no la. fionn asking on the schools subject system.

48. If you have a chance to migrate where will you migrate to?

-taiwan or korea. but i'm happy where i am now.

49. Do you have any nicknames?

-yeah.. shaojie suhanASHLEY jiex gor ash han

50. What does your last received text message say?Who was it from?

-from khatigah. cos its council stuff so cannot disclose.

51. What time did you go to bed last night?

-1am

52. Are you currently happy?

-hmm... sort of?

53. Who gives you best advice?

-my mom, mrs ong and ms wong

54. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?

-no. i'm not dumb.

55. Who did you talk to on phone last night?

-no one.. i was chatting with mfbbt forum people in forum..

56. Is anything bugging you right now?
-yeah. and i'm not saying what.

57. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?

-mfbbt, ace seniors posts on ace blog.. XD

60. Do you wear toe socks?

-WTH..

61. Who was the last person you missed a call from?

-sandhya

62. Have you ever had your heartbroken?

-err..

63. What annoys you most in a person?

-my brother

64. Do you have a crush on anyone?

-yeah..

65. Have you ever done cocaine?

-nope. i'm not dumb.

66. What is the colour of your room?

-blue

67. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?

-nope. i'm not a money face.

68. Do you believe in the saying “talk is cheap”?
-ehh?

69. Who was the last person to hug you?

-magdaline

70. Who was the last person you saw in your dream

-lots of people? err..

71. Favourite website?

-woo.com, youtube and mfbbtsgfc.



...jotting it down, at Sunday, July 13, 2008
annoyed..

okay...
since alex started to complain abt my blog being boring and cobwebs are starting to invade my blog, haha
i will start posting again..
paiseh for being MIA for such a long time and stuff...
was very busy and tired.
i was also very annoyed with myself too..
my nationals didnt do well cos smth affected it to screw up.
schedule was totally screwed during the holidays
and i have to be there for several reasons making me unable to train as frequently as the two yrs back.
i'm jus very annoyed by several things that happened during the nationals period.
theres other reasons that made me super annoyed.
even until now.
no motivation to do myhmwk..
but i tried my best to get them done..
and no motivation to study as well..
i'm like.. wth..
tests are starting to build up..
and also council work..
now i really know how marie feels..
i really wanna take leave from mrs ong..
so i can concentrate well on my studies, training and music.
i'm really very annoyed by certain people also..
namely 女狗 三牙 沙如 談梁 玩那沙 做安 因廳
i really dunno what to do with them.
its like one is super irritating
one is like super lenient to people and making it super hard to get people to do things and stuff
one is like super high and stuff..
wth..
one is like..
okay. she gives me advices and stuff.. i thank her for that. but she is uncontactable!
how am i gonna ask her for help when she is uncontactable?
one is like changing herself alot after certain promotions and after that being very irritating and stuff..
the other 2 are my enemies in class.
they may seem very nice to people in class
but i never expect them to be my enemies.
since they wanna treat me like this i shall treat them like what they did to me.
like what people say, an eye for an eye.


alright..
i'm done with several short complainings.
anyway, other than all these annoying stuff
there are also several things that made me motivated to pass through annoying times..
yeah..
i'm confirmed that i dun like DC anymore..
super confirmed..
cos its been a yr since i thought of him..
dawn knows why XDD
haha..
dun bother asking dawn cos we've made a pact.
yeah..
haha..
sounds wierd.. and funny..
but its confirmed ^^
haha..
也不知道我在害羞甚麼
yeah.. haha..

oh ya..
haha..
another thing that made me happy is that RAFFLES WON ALL CHAMPION TITLES!
haha..
gd job raffles XD
also, haha.. ace blog is super funny.. i jus went to read from the very first post to the most recent ones.. i can die of LAUGHING YO..
super funny can,,
[s]and i dunno why i only like raffles guys..
first DC now RK..
all from raffles..[/s]
haha..

but that does not mean i'm boy crazy XD
not like my friend andrea sng XDD
haha..


































IJ convention was super fun..
we really shld have a combined IJ thing for all IJ family..
like bring out the IJ band during nationals and cheer for all IJ athletes..
it will be super duper cool XD
yeahh..

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...jotting it down, at
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suhanASHLEY
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동방신기!!!
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Hates.

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Wishes.

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Previous posts.

reopening just for apollo power cheer.. lol!!!APOL...
i've officially moved!suhanashley.livejournal.com
going...going... gone.
30 degrees... and up.
haha.. finally i'm typing again.its after the MYE!...
朋友... 真的一生一起走嘛?
piss off..
celebration party ^^
injured.. again. inside out.
laugh out LOUD!



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