injured.. again. inside out.
i'm seriously looking forward to the day when my shoulder really recover.
its kinda horrible when i have to get up half way through the set, trying to endure the pain and sit down there, see my team mates swim and train for nats.
i really wanna meet my goal this time.
i promised.
and this is my last year..
i really dun wanna screw my nats this yr like what i did last yr.
i kinda blame myself for being accident prone..
and i hate myself for that.
its not that i'm trying to find something to skip training or PE.
in fact, i love sports.
i love it second to music.
but i dunno why the hell i'm getting all these stuff.
it seriously annoys me.
anyway, enough of the emo talk. i really needa get it out.
i needa think positive now..
its a crucial period for me as well as the team..
anyway, first week of school was quite okay..
didnt get into trouble no nothing.
any rants or rattles regarding places which promotes unhappiness to me,
which i really dun wanna post it here cos of reasons,
i think it will be kept in my heart.
i dun wann type in chinese just yet.
i havent been updating my wretch for the longest of time..
if i got time..
ac today, in my opnion is moderate only..
did registration and well, got abit confused here and there..
i wonder where did my chinese go to.
and how come i stumble and was quite soft when asking the guests?
where and what the hell happened to the old me.
i've noticed i changed.
and i dun like this change.
i want my old self back.
the old self from sec 1.
from sec 2.
things changed too.
and i really want it back to where it originally came from.
i really want to bring back the old me.
the old goh su han ashley
the one whom is more firm and clear on what she shld do and what she shld not do.
but how?
i guess i'm still emo.
i'm trying to get GSH back..
GSHA is not happy now. she is not. she wants to be the one who can really open her heart, be somebody who's a leader, a responsible one.
but when will GSH come back?
GSHA misses her now.
she needs GSH back before its too late.
but when?
...jotting it down, at Sunday, March 29, 2009